Everything will be okay, they say.

The other night was horrible: I was on the verge of collapse. I couldn't make up my mind, I figured out that I have to pay for someone who owes me, even more and I am about to lose a friend. It's amazing though how you always try to look on the bright-side of life even though you're crumbling, dying in the inside. A simple time to get out, go for a walk to think can make your worries less. However, I hate how you'll still carry the burden until you rest. Thank you subconsciousness. I had one of the most terrible sleeps as far as I could remember and I didn't like it. When I woke up again, I decided to talk to myself, only me would do that. I convinced myself that there's far more life will bring for me. That I have to stay alive to make everyone me happy; alive in the sense of my witty spirit. I can't pass unto them the bad vibes-- it's just wrong and disrespectful. Thank you subconsciousness.

I can always win back my friend, sort my finances out and be free again. At work, I didn't feel the best but I made sure I will not ruin someone's day, I will make sure I'll be as happy as I can.

I think the more positivity you try to convey, you attract more. I was enlightened and I knew everything will be okay in the soonest time. I found myself on a bus to the town of Mount Barker, reading on The Alchemist with a big headache from the improper sleep. Everything changed from there on. Everything turned better.

A Time for Everything

3 There is a time for everything,
    and a season for every activity under the heavens:

2     a time to be born and a time to die,
    a time to plant and a time to uproot,
3     a time to kill and a time to heal,
    a time to tear down and a time to build,
4     a time to weep and a time to laugh,
    a time to mourn and a time to dance,
5     a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
    a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
6     a time to search and a time to give up,
    a time to keep and a time to throw away,
7     a time to tear and a time to mend,
    a time to be silent and a time to speak,
8     a time to love and a time to hate,
    a time for war and a time for peace.

9 What do workers gain from their toil? 10 I have seen the burden God has laid on the human race. 11 He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet[a] no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end. 12 I know that there is nothing better for people than to be happy and to do good while they live. 13 That each of them may eat and drink, and find satisfaction in all their toil—this is the gift of God. 14 I know that everything God does will endure forever; nothing can be added to it and nothing taken from it. God does it so that people will fear him.

15 Whatever is has already been,
    and what will be has been before;
    and God will call the past to account.[b]

 
It's all about knowing that the same hand that saved thousands, is still the same hand that will save me.

Everything will be okay, they say... and they are right.